In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Just a Dream.”
This poem describes a recurring nightmare I used to have.
They’re crawling at speed
and my leaden feet
are letting me down
while their chemical needs
fill their minds with treason
which blinds them to reason
and feeds them with fervour,
making them faster than me.
As they chase me
the weight of the air all around
is pressing me down
and all I can hear is
the sound of my fear;
my laboured panting
and heart-beat pounding
as it tries to escape through my ears.
The end of the alley is darkly looming
and I see no escape
from death’s grinning face
as the figures draw nearer
disturbing the air with their
fetid breath and their skin-flaying cries.
And then I see three doors before me,
and hope of escape
floods through my veins,
bringing adrenalin forth in its wake
to help me select
the correct door to take.
The first one is fakely fashioned and fancy,
foolishly aping the noble oak’s grain
The second is painted in pink plastic gloss,
and I know that an entry would offer no gain
the one that I choose
is ancient and flaking
and chipped, with the dust
of long years overlain
I grab at the handle,
it opens with ease and
welcomes me in
then ceases to be.
It’s served its purpose
and sealed me safely
away from the drug crazed,
desparate faces
that sink from my mind
as I survey this place.
Before me a corridor stretches and curves
and the walls are constructed
from industrial shelves
with broad sheets of metal
which tower around me,
above me so high I can’t see the ceiling,
and the shelves are stacked
with miriad treasures and trash
and boxes and cases of leather.
Though I feel a desire to stop and examine
the curious curio stacked all about,
I know I must hurry and find an exit
as the grumble of thunder
is crumbling the ceiling
and pieces of plaster
are dropping on me.
While I am racing
to find an escape route
I see that the treasure is all from my past.
The bagatelle board
that I loved as a child
is tucked at the back
behind an old dress
and further along looking
fresh and un-used
is a bottle of perfume I lost long ago.
There are dolls and fossils
and fairy tale stories
and memories of glorious days in the sun.
And preserved
in this heart-space I finally find
the fetish that’s held me
through all these years.
It was lost in the dust of
a moment of absence;
a rose from my lover so long ago.
Now the rain is seeping
and soaking the ceiling,
damping and swamping all that I was.
I redouble my hunt
to discover an exit,
and as I am running
I hear my possessions
collapsing and crashing
through the floor,
Then I turn the next bend
and I see the old door
which welcomes me warmly
so I quickly step through,
onto a platform
with the sky overhead
and a drop deep beneath me.
If I fall I’ll be dead
but the platform leads
to the top of a stone wall
where I will be safe
from destruction and death
I step from the platform
onto the surface of the wall so tall
and high above ground.
Surrounded by sun
in the wake of the storm
the place I have left growls
with ground-shaking sounds
as mortar is beaten
by deep-seated moisture,
subversively slipping its devilish drops
into my heart-space,
and breaking it down.
The building collapses,
and within it my history.
The bagatelle board,
the perfume, the rose,
are swallowed up
as the ground beneath opens,
covers, encloses them
leaving no trace of the past behind
Now looking around me all I can see
is a deep flooded landscape
with the tops of some trees
which remain bravely standing
with their trunks in deep water,
awaiting the moment
when their roots will lose hold.
And now I know
if you run from the danger,
you lose all of the good things
both hidden and clear.
They come as a package,
a mistery gift
in rainbow ribbon
soaked through with tears.
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
I awoke from this nightmare
and wished that the darkness
had eaten me whole
and left my shell,
to let others know
that I’d finished this lifespan,
my life on this earth
which seemed more like hell.
But I kept stepping forwards
for the sake of my family,
and my family sustained me
while my rose kept me well.
Enriched by kindness
I am finding my future,
and my steps are guided by love and goodwill.
I have many to thank
for the floods that have dried
and the trees standing
proud on every side.
The wall still stands
and I stand upon it,
the stones and the mortar
too strong to subside.
© Jane Paterson Basil
Nice poem Jane, and your blog is looking gorgeous! Good makeover 😀
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Thank you Arundhati. It’s lovely to see you! I’ve been so lost in poetry that I haven’t managed a visit to your blog lately.
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Oh that’s okay. You are one of my most loyal reader 🙂 I haven’t managed visiting my blog in a long time before today, either!
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I hope that it’s because you’re so busy enjoying life!
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Wow Jane you really got across the whole dreamscape / nightmare brilliantly. Great skills
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Thank you for that lovely compliment, and for reading it all the way through! Somehow I don’t think many people did, and it makes me a little sad because I was trying to put a message across.
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Hi Jane, yes sometimes it can be easy to become cynical about how many people read all the way through. That is a reflection of our time-starved / frenetic culture though rather than the quality of your writing. I wrote in a similar style on ripples of thought once, consciously creating a ripple effect – and someone implied I needed to get a life and completely missed the point. Their loss!
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But sinking deeply into writing is an essential part of life for many of us!
And on the subject of the ripple effect, if we don’t bother to think about it, the people around us tend to drown in our thoughtlessness.
Does that make sense to you? I think I may be a bit too fond of metaphors.
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Yes very good
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