again

handle-8

at the apex of hurt
the spirit slips to a safe place
watches curtains billow
plucks daisies, thinks about cake
then loses its kindly grip

always, when you fall
you land on the knife

each slash feels like
the worst
the final
the killing cut

 but you stagger to your feet
disguise the festering gash across your face
so it looks like a smile

while
you tell yourself
it
will
never
happen
again

again

again

. . .

©Jane Paterson Basil

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26 thoughts on “again

      1. Yes they did.
        Said all looks good from
        my end. Asked if I knew what people
        were clicking on to end up on my old site?
        What did you click on Jane?
        Intended to ask you tomorrow.

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        1. I can click on your email reminders, or I can google Monochrome nightmares. If I try to get to you from one of your comments I just get ‘ajobrien. wordpress .com is no longer available – it’s just occurred to me, maybe if I ‘unfollow’ your original blog I may be able to reach you through your comments. I’ll try that…

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            1. I’m not. I’ve contacted the forum again, but I don’t expect a reply. I should put a time limit on it, and if I can’t sort it out, abandon my blog – just leave it hanging – and start again, either with a new email and domain, so I won’t be mistaken for a spammer, or with Blogspot. I don’t want to leave WP, but I’m pretty upset by the current lack of support.

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                1. That’s because you’ve actively accepted one of them, by restoring it from the spam/trash folder. If I message a blogger who doesn’t follow me, WP automatically dumps it in the bin, and I can’t do anything about it. The only reason I can comment anywhere is because I asked everyone who comes on my site and who I also follow, to restore my comments.

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                    1. Yes. I think that’s her.
                      Can you do me a favour.
                      WP have told me what to do,
                      to fix my problem.
                      Can you try and visit my site
                      by clicking on one of my comments.

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                    2. I never got your reply saying,
                      It went to the deleted site again. 😟
                      I’ve only just seen it on your comments.
                      And its not in my spam file.

                      Did you find Mopana?

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                    3. I got distracted, but I will when I catch up with myself. The ‘happiness engineers’ got back to me today, and said they’d fixed my problem, but comments are still disappearing when I try to message unfamiliar blogs. I’m sure they’ll manage to sort it out now I have their attention.
                      I’m going to try again to click onto your site

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    1. Thank you! I was pleased with it – Exposing my scars seems to be what I do best 🙂
      I have faith in your instincts and knowledge, so I’ll take your advice if I ever pluck up the courage to risk failure. I’m not suggesting I would fail, just that I’d be easily crushed, should it happen…

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